Tuesday, December 18, 2012


I really do enjoy you blog. Thank you Emily!!
I have been wondering exactly how you put your hair up in a bun ever since you first blogged about it. My hair is very thick and I cannot find a way to put it into a bun at all. Maybe you could post a picture of how it looks when it is finished, or write out a few instructions. I know it's silly, but I'm kind of at a lost of things to do with my hair!

*sigh* I did hope that my first comment to this blog would be a bit more interesting, but I suppose this has been the only thing to get past my procrastinating nature.
Oh well, I think you understand.

Thank you! :)"

Comment on It's Monday Again

Dear Reagan,

Sorry it's taken me so long to respond. You see, I've always meant to respond in a post (like I'm doing now) but I was going to take pictures and things for you and I keep forgetting. So I thought I would write this up even if I don't have the pictures, as I suppose it's better to respond in the first place rather than never responding because you're trying to make it better.

I actually taught myself how to do it from this youtube video:


(I teach myself all sorts of things from youtube videos. Whenever I need to learn a new knitting technique or something you can always find a video and I just pause it and replay it as long as I need to. Very helpful.)

(I normally gather up my hair much lower than she does)

I hope this is helpful! And thank you so much for the comment. I love comments and I always get so excited to get them. Sorry I've been slow to respond!




It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas

From the Kitchen:

For the past two days I've been busily baking. Really, yesterday I was in the kitchen from as soon as I hopped out of bed, till nearly two in the afternoon. I made pizza dough, and at least three different batches of cookies. I wish I had taken a picture, I had four huge plates piled with cookies. Sadly, I handed off about half of them before even thinking of it. This morning I got up and made banana bread (which I just pulled out of the oven. Perfect for a yummy afternoon snack, along with coffee, before going off to work.)

I'm listening to:

Cold December Night. I love this song. Really I do.

I'm thinking:

The other day I was thinking on words. Actually, this is something I think on quite a lot. If you know me you will know that words are something I love, and consequently they are something I talk a lot about. (Goodness, I even named my last blog Meaningful Words, and my first post was on how we should choose our words carefully, because each word means something.) I was thinking about this program which you can use to see what your say ten, fifteen, twenty most frequently used words were on various websites. It's interesting you know, seeing what words you use the most often. Are they nice words? Words that give you a nice happy feeling, even as they are, disconnected from each other and any sentence that they might have been put into. I was thinking about if you could gather all those words that you spoke as well as wrote, what words would they be? I know the sort of words I would want my vocabulary to be summed up with, the question is, whether I live up to that. I certainly hope my words are ones that are kind and meant to bring joy to those with whom I'm talking, and those words that I have spoken that do not live up to this goal, I hope that I might eliminate in future.

Anyhow, this is a word cloud of a collection of words on this blog.


One of my favorite things:

The week before Christmas. I just want it to last forever. I just want to stretch out these days in which we get to finish up on Christmas presents, baking Christmas cookies and making Christmas crafts. On which topic, here's a picture of my favorite Christmas craft of this year

 
Isn't it just lovely?
 
 
I'm creating:
 
A couple days ago I embroidered the facial features on my knit doll, and I'm just finishing up the red dress I made for her. I'll post a picture after I sew on the arms, as the arms really are necessary. I am a little nervous to actually sew them, because I've worked so hard on her and I don't want to mess her up. I've also named her Lorna, after Lorna Doone, so I'm trying to figure out a way to incorporate her name onto a tag of some sort.
 
I'm hoping:
 
For snow. I hope it will snow. Please? Please let it snow?
 
I'm reading:
 
The Book Thief. I'm actually really impressed by this book so far. It's one of the best written books of a recent publishing date that I've read.
 
I'm wearing:
 
Sweat pants, a green t-shirt and a jacket of my Dad's that is immensely to large for me. Yes, it is noon. Yes, I do have to work soon. No, I shan't be dressed in such a manner very shortly. However, too large jackets are really warm and cozy. Jackets that fit just aren't this cozy. They're really not.
 
 


Monday, December 10, 2012

Muddy Roads and Books


Outside my window

Today is a day that verges along the edge of a boundary, a line, that separates Fall and Winter. Perhaps if I lived somewhere else I would definitely describe it as Fall weather; cloudy skies, green grass tipped with frost, muddy roads, but for us, it has a hinting of Winter. Not that Winter is even supposed to begin until the end of the month (doesn’t that seem rather silly to you? December seems such a wintery month to me, and yet Winter doesn’t even begin till the last few days.) When I look out my window what I really want to describe most is mud. Dark, chocolaty brown mud. I like mud. That is, I like mud when I slip on my extra tall boots (courtesy of last Christmas and my increasing need for boots) and trump about in a road of mud. Mud that squishes, squelches, and sticks to the bottom of the old boots.

 I’m reading

The Book Thief (so far I’m really enjoying it. I’m about ten chapters in I think, and it’s really well written and absorbing. I dislike how the book is broken up with these bolded sections between paragraphs, it’s rather jolting, but so far that’s my only complaint. Then again I’m still near the beginning)

Skipping Christmas (This is a reread. I recommend. It always makes me laugh.)

A Wodehouse story from my Just enough Jeeves story collection.

I’m  finding my list of books increasing by dozen as I’ve been going through Sarah’s book blogs, and really, I want to read anything she suggests. I have a great big long list of books to find now.

From the Kitchen

Cold coffee sitting on the tabletop.

A few plans for the rest of the week

I’ve been filling out a new address book, slowly but surely. Who knew it could take such a long time? I’m about half way through. I also need to finish filling out Christmas cards, but extra envelopes are necessary. Also, I would like to create some Christmas ornaments and things. That’s always such fun.

I’m creating

Well, I believe I covered what I’m creating in the prompt above, but I do also need to finish up my doll. I want to have it all ready to give to Ella on Christmas.

I’m listening to

Squealing children running up and down the stairs, thump, thump, thump.
 

 

Monday, November 26, 2012

The Victorian Lady and Christmas Lights

I'm thinking...(I wrote this yesterday? but I'm posting anyhow)

There is a lady who lives in the town nearest to us who wears Victorian garb every day, and when I say Victorian garb I mean everything. You can see her walking down the street with trailing skirts and lacy blouses, her hair up in a large pompadour. She often carries a parasol and rides on a very old fashioned looking bicycle. Now, I’ll be honest and say that originally I thought this rather strange. You know, one of those odd quirks of people belonging to a little town (and this is coming from someone obsessed with historic dresses and hairstyles.)
I’ve been thinking about her a lot though lately, and found that I really admire her. If I found it strange, you can well imagine the looks she must get when she walks into a grocery store or something. I admire her because she really doesn’t care. She isn’t doing it to make a show, to go against society or anything of the like- she does it because she likes to. She feels comfortable in floor length skirts and heels that lace or button up past the ankle. She wears clothes like that because she loves them, and honestly doesn’t care about other people’s opinions.
Which I find really refreshing.
It is all too common for us to worry how we appear in other people’s minds. To worry about the impression we are making, or what is being said about us. When really the most important thing is to have a good opinion of yourself. Now I’m not saying that we should all live a Victorian lifestyle, indeed that would be most impractical, but I think we should care a little less about what other people think of us. I know that there are times when I feel like simply being happy and humming as I go about doing whatever task I’m at work with, and yet I stifle the hum because I’m afraid of the stranger walking past me.
It’s not that I hide who I am, and if someone asks me I’m happy enough to answer them honestly, but there’s still that part of me that wants to be invisible. That doesn’t want to stand out. I want to be less afraid of being noticed, because if you’re confident and happy with yourself that’s what is really important, and that’s a beautiful thing.

Outside my window...it's a lovely chilly day.

I'm wearing...A striped sweater and jeans and am wrapped up in a large blanket.

I'm reading...Jeeves and Wooster books by P. G. Wodehouse

I'm creating... Almost finished with my doll's dress.

I'm listening to...Christmas music, yay!

A picture thought I'm sharing...
 
 
My room all decorated with lights, doesn't it look lovely?

 
Road to Avonlea

I’m pretty sure most people have a favorite show. The show you own all the seasons to and know every episode by heart. That show where it only takes the theme music to make you perfectly happy. For me that show would be Road to Avonlea. When I was about nine or ten we rented the first season, and after that everyone knew that my favorite present on a birthday would be the next season. Even now it is the show that I go back to when I have a head cold or am feeling sad. There’s just something about the opening shots of the cliff tops in front of the ocean, the fields of waving grass, the soft piano music, it makes me happy. Perhaps this is partially because I have so many memories with it, nostalgia, but beyond that there’s something about it that I love so much. It’s s happy, it’s sweet, and it’s innocent. I’ve never been a fan of a lot of drama. I’ve always felt that there’s enough of that in real life without having to feed myself that in entertainment. I’ve grown some since when I was younger and used to refuse to read any book where a person died. I like a good story, I like plot and emotion, but I still don’t like an excess of drama. Road to Avonlea is essentially a happy series, a series following children running through fields and wiggling their bare feet in the sand on the shore. I honestly feel attached to each and every one of the various characters, Aunt Hetty, Uncle Alec, Gus, Felix, they’re all a part of my childhood and I have a special fondness for each of them.  Yes, Road to Avonlea has this special place in my heart.


 Leave it to Beaver

 If you know me you probably know that I love old black and white movies and TV shows. For years I knew that if I brought up a favorite thing to watch most of my peers would give me blank stares. They hadn’t even heard of these shows that had played back when their grandparents were growing up. Actually, I think this rather pleased me, as if I knew a lovely secret. Leave it to Beaver was one of these.  They’re awfully fun and sweet, and I have quite a few brothers so I like stories about little boys. Besides, I have a soft spot for Wally.

 I Love Lucy

 I don’t think I’ve laughed so much over a show as I have I Love Lucy. Comedy that makes one laugh with no crudity as so much of our humor now days is filled with. My favorite episode would probably be “Lucy does a TV Commercial.” I like the ones when they go to Hollywood a lot too though (mostly because of all the cameos of movie stars I know. I always go JOHN WAYNE and wave my hands about because I actually know all of the movie stars) Also, Lucy’s dresses are beautiful, but that’s just a side note.
 

 Robin Hood (BBC)

 This show is the best. No, really, I know I keep saying this, but it’s one of my favorites. It is just the sort of adventure tale I like, nothing too dark, but full of daring do and escapades. Yes, that’s the sort of thing I like. Robin’s my darling with the way he smiles and strides about cockily. I love Marian and her way of combining being ladylike and adventurous. (Did I mention her costumes. Beautiful.) and Will. I shan’t go into them all, but Will must be mentioned, as he’s quite probably my favorite character. Actually, the characters are what really make this show. They’re all really well done. I laugh, I cry, and with each rewatch I laugh and cry some more. I just love. (FYI I refuse to acknowledge the existence of a third season. It didn’t happen. That is all.)

Doctor Who

This is my newest favorite show. I actually hadn’t watched it until last Summer. I had heard all about it, but I’d never actually watched it myself. Now it’s very high on my list. I went through all the episodes at probably the fastest pace I have with any show before. What I like best is how different every episode is. They’re always different and I always enjoy them. I admit it, I originally started watching for Rory, because Rory is amazing, but as soon as I was through his episodes I had come to love everything about the show. Now my brother and I can chatter about Doctor Who for hours, and it has the distinction of being the only show I went so crazy about that I bought a poster (which hangs up by my desk if you’d like to know.)

 

 

Monday, November 12, 2012

It's Monday Again

I'm thinking...

I'm going to be keeping this short today. November is seeming a very busy month. (Also, no I never did finish the October challenge did I? Perhaps I'll write up some more letters in December. After college applications and NaNo.)

From the Kitchen...

Two nice little balls of bread dough sitting on the counter in a puddle of flour. What a lovely way to begin the week, with the smell of homeade bread flooding through the house.

I'm listening to...

Christmas music. (yes, we are listening to Christmas music already. It isn't really full out Christmas music though, just piano. It makes us all happy though.)

I'm wearing...

My periwinkle blue "Christendom" t-shirt and jeans. As soon as my hair dries I'm going to fix it into the bun style that I've been wearing quite often lately.

I'm creating...

I really do need to finish knitting my doll, don't I? My hope is to definetly finish it by the end of December. I'm rather looking forward to December as a month that will have slowed down some. A month of knitting, crafting, baking and counting down the days till Christmas.

Around the house...

spread all across the table are many pages of paper painted with lovely watercolors.

I'm reading...

Joy in the Morning, by P. G. Wodehouse.

Outside my window...

It's a rather grey day. (Is gray the British spelling and grey the American one? I was just thinking about that. Perhaps I shall look it up.)

One of my favorite things...

Baking bread.

A few plans for the rest of the day...

Finishing up my bread, writing an essay, working on my novel, etc.

Monday, November 5, 2012

Of Writing and The Hobbit

I'm reading...

Perhaps I should begin with what I'm reading, as that is what is on my mind at the moment. Sorcery and Cecelia Or The Enchanted Chocolate Pot by Patricia C. Wrede and Caroline Stevermer. Don't you just hate it when you reach the most absorbing and altogether interesting point in a story, and it's just at that point that you have to put it down? Now I don't mean to complain, but really. When you are forced to leave your heroine in the most horrendous of circumstances how are you supposed to put your mind to anything else? You may appear to be thinking about the many things you ought to be thinking about, but really you're just thinking of the book.
This is especially the case if it's a good book such as the one I'm reading right now. At first I was rather put off by the fact that it is written in letter form, which is really a difficult way to tell a story, you know. Because just when you're getting into the telling of the story, and you forget that it really is a story at all, you are reminded by the ending of one letter and starting of the next. So, yes, it's a harder style to write without loosing your reader's attention, but I think the authors of this book succeed at it. Now that I'm reaching the end I'm really hooked (I must admit that the letter styling did bother me till a good six chapters into the story.)
I was also a trifle unsure about the regency setting, considering that it was also a fantasy story (not usually a pairing one finds.) I do think that it sounds a trifle funny to be having references to Lady Jersey and talk of enchanted chocolate pots in the same sentences. It makes me laugh. No wonder the dedication was to Jane Austen, Georgette Heyer, and J.R.R. Tolkien.

I'm creating...

(Or, in other words, NaNoWriMo update!) Dear me, um, I do believe that I may possibly be starting over? *ducks head and hides from all bystanders* I know, I know, remember what I said, what was it two days ago? Keeping on with it and all that rot? Well, you see, I just can't stand my main character. It isn't that she's hate-able (I might be able to stand her if she was) and she isn't likable either. One can't connect with her. Then I started reading an old story of mine, about a character called Mary-Agnes. Honestly, she's probably my favorite character that I've ever written, and yet the story feels rather badly written I wrote it so long ago. So now I'm writing a whole new story about her. Starting NaNoWriMo over again five days into it? Bad done, Emily. Badly done. (Did I really just quote Mr. Knightly, there? Yes, yes I did. Changing Emma for Emily and there we are.) How shall you ever catch up on 8,334 words while still maintaining a consistent 1,667 words a day besides that? I really don't know. All I can say is I better get back to writing.

Also, on a slightly differing creative note, I just restarted my knit dress for my knit doll. (Dear me, that's a lot of starting again on things, isn't it?) but I dropped some stitches and I needed to unravel the whole thing so there we are. I do think it's going to turn out rather cute though.

I'm listening to...

The Brave soundtrack on youtube. I really like it. It's my favorite right now.

Outside my window...

Don't you just love fall? *sentimental sigh*

One of my favorite things...

Holiday coffee cups. They're just lovely. They make me happy.

A few plans for the rest of the week...

Having a smashing good week of school, work, and being generally productive (such as writing out some essays for my college application.) Other than that NaNoWriMo takes over.

I'd also rather like to go down to Barnes and Noble since I have a gift card (Is this a yes, Mama? Yes, please?)

I'm wearing...

Jeans, a cream sweater, and a grey vintage looking hat (I'm rather in love with this hat). Also, on the subject of hairstyles I've figured out this way to put my hair up in a bun and it's really quite lovely. You twist it all up with the cuff of a sock (that you have cut down for that purpose) and tie it off with a rubber band or two. It really makes me feel quite happy.

A picture thought I'm sharing...

Did I mention we carved Avenger style pumpkins?

 
Also, (because everyone needs to get as excited for The Hobbit as I am)...
 


EVERYONE. HOBBIT. THE HOBBIT. LESS THAN TWO MONTHS. EVERYONE. THE HOBBIT. ARE YOU EXCITED? I'M EXCITED. SO EXCITED.

MARTIN FREEMAN IS THE PERFECT BILBO. HE IS ADORABLE PERFECTION. AND RICHARD ARMITAGE. MR. THORTON. DO YOU SEE HIM?

Okay, sorry, capslock.

BUT THE HOBBIT, PEOPLE. READ THE BOOK. WATCH THE TRAILER. LISTEN TO THE MUSIC. DRAW LITTLE HOBBITS IN EVERY NOTEBOOK. GAWK AT THE POSTERS. WATCH EVERY MOVIE THE ACTORS PLAYING IN IT WERE EVER IN AND TRY TO ENVISION THEM IN THEIR PARTS AS CHARACTERS IN THE HOBBIT. THE. HOBBIT.

Basically, this is amazing. At the time the Lord of the Rings movies came out I was obviously not old enough to watch, but now I'm going to have that time of waiting for each new movie and properly hyperventilating the whole time. I expect to enjoy tremendously.

Breathe, Emily, breathe.

But, you do realize how amazing this is, right?

Anyhow, must start up on some math and SAT studying. Have a lovely Monday, dear reader!






Friday, November 2, 2012

NANOWRIMO


You may have noticed that it is now the 2nd day of November, and thus the second day of NaNoWriMo!  I have so far written 3,304 words into The Story of Living (I put up a little widget in the side bar where you can keep track of the word amount I am currently at.)

I'm really not sure if I've written anything of quality so far, but that's not the idea of NaNoWriMo. The idea is to write, write, write, for all the month of November. At the end of it we'll all have a first draft of a story, and first drafts are supposed to be bad. (No really, ask any published author and they'll tell you that their first drafts were terrible. It was only after they went about editing and going over their first draft, creating a second and a third draft that the real story began to appear on the page.)

I'm going to continue on with this story, knowing that my characters may change personality several times during the story, that the plot might change into something quite different from what it was to begin with, and I'm not going to edit a bit. Editing is for December. (Did I mention how hard that is?)

I'm going to let my fingers fly across the keyboard without hindering them, and see where I end up.

Now a bit of NaNoWriMo writing music.





Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Thinking of Tomorrow


"Tomorrow," I sigh happily to myself, "Tomorrow is going to be lovely." My thoughts dwell on the many happy little things that will take place tomorrow- and rightly so. Tomorrow is to be full of many lovely things, many blessings and many things to be thankful for, but when tomorrow comes, will I be thinking of these things, or will my mind go yet again to that elusive tomorrow?

Thinking of what tomorrow will bring is a beautiful thing, it is hope. I'm afraid though, that because I'm thinking of tomorrow, I lose track of today, and that's not something I want. With each day I don't want to be longing for the next. Yes, tomorrow will be beautiful, as will the day after and the day after. Perhaps they will contain something I fear, something I dread, or maybe some delightful surprise, but let's think of today.

What little details of today am I missing because my mind is so caught up in tomorrow?

Suddenly I'm realizing how beautiful are the moments that I'm living now, today, this moment. I'm thinking of climbing up on a footstool to put a book away and looking down at all the people contentedly reading across the library. I'm thinking of holding a warm cup of coffee in my hands and knowing I have another ten whole minutes to sit in the car. I'm thinking of leaning back in my chair and twisting the yarn round and round my knitting needles, knowing that there is no reason to rush my project. I'm thinking of those last two pages of my Agatha Christie and how I could read them right now or save them for just the right moment.

Sometimes I think I don't enjoy those moments as I should. I look forward to them, I prattle on about how I can't wait to be doing those things again, but sometimes I overlook those moments because I'm thinking that in ten minutes, in an hour, in a day, I shall need to be doing this or that.

Happiness is often in one's perspective. You could be thinking "I have ten lovely more minutes to sit here sipping my cup of coffee" or you could be thinking "oh dear, I don't think I shall have time to drink my coffee, and it's raining outside, and I have to dash in and now my ten minutes are over." The latter isn't the mindset I want for myself.

Thinking of tomorrow is lovely, there's a lot of things to dream about, but in doing so I don't want to miss out on today.

Today is beautiful.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Baking Day

This morning I woke up and made my carrot cake (you know, the one I've been talking about for days on end) and then I was having such fun in the kitchen I decided to make some homemade bread as well. There's really nothing like the smell of homemade bread in the oven (a lovely smell which fills our kitchen as I'm writing this.)

I thought, to finish off my adventures in the kitchen, I should write a post about my baking day.


 
Carrot Cake
(From the Better Homes and Gardens Cookbook)
 
2 cups all-purpose flour
2 cups sugar
1 teaspoon baking powder
1 teaspoon baking soda
1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
3 cups shredded carrot
1 cup cooking oil
4 eggs
 
 In a bowl combine flour, sugar, baking powder, baking soda and cinnamon. Add carrot, oil, and eggs. Beat with an electric mixer till combined. Pour into a greased 13x9 inch baking pan. Bake in a 350 degree oven for 30 to 35 minutes or until a toothpick inserted near the center comes out clean. Let cool. Makes 12 to 15 servings.
 
 
Cream Cheese Frosting
 
6 ounces of cream cheese
1/2 butter (softened)
2 teaspoons vanilla
4 1/2 to 4 3/4 cups sifted powdered sugar
 
In a bowl beat together cream cheese, butter, and vanilla till light and fluffy. Gradually add 2 cups powdered sugar, beating well. Gradually beat in enough remaining powdered sugar to make frosting of spreading consistency. Frost cake. (I topped mine with chopped pecans.)
 
 

Easy No Knead Honey Oat Bread





The other day when I was shelving books at the library I came across a book I thought would go well with this post.
Fannie in the Kitchen

It's really the cutest book. I love the illustrations. You must go look at it.




 










Dear Agatha Christie,


Yours were the first mystery books I was to learn to love. After, I was to discover the appeal of Father Brown, of Sherlock Holmes and Watson, but you were the first. I say learned to love, for, if I remember correctly, my opinion of my first (Elephants Can Remember) was less than favorable. I had enjoyed it, even liked it, but I didn't regard it with any particular degree of fondness. Perhaps this was merely because it was my first; I had never liked books where people died, let alone were murdered, so for me to take a great liking of your books was a bit of a change in tastes.
After I finished Elephants Can Remember I returned it to the library and forgot all about it. That is- until I started hearing your name mentioned again. So I asked around, looked into a few titles that were mentioned to me as favorites, and read The Man in the Brown Suit and The Secret Adversary (I really don't remember which came first) and suddenly I had a list four pages long and was crossing off titles at a mad pace. Needless to say, those two titles remain high among my favorites to this day. Especially The Secret Adversary, which I would really consider my favorite among them all.
Now, some fifty plus books later, I would mention you among my favorite authors. It is still my goal to read all of your books and I have a consistent stack of three hanging about in my bedroom and various canvas bags. I suddenly discovered how much I liked reading mysteries, contemplating the characters, motives and opportunities. I'm still not overly fond of the type of book that focuses on the death, but the thing that I have noticed about your books is that you do not focus on the death, but more on the lives surrounding that death. I think I remember a few scenes in various Poirot books where he says something to that affect, about how his aim is not to condemn the guilty but to save the innocent.
Of course, the problem with mysteries is I find myself getting very cautious about giving my affection to any one of your characters. Or if I do, I end up feeling torn the entire book, thinking oh please don't let my darling be killed, oh please don't let my darling be killed. Or worse, OH PLEASE DON'T LET MY DARLING BE A MURDERER. OH PLEASE. THEY'RE GOOD. GOOD. PLEASE. Which really isn't the most relaxing way to read a book, but oh the relief if your character comes out safe and happy and proven the good person you always knew they were!
Aside from all my love for you as a reader, as a writer (or as someone who hopes to be a writer) I am constantly in awe of you. My question is, how, how, did you ever manage to write so many? To come up with that many different plots, all of which succeed in fooling me. (Or if they don't fool me, I'm always exceedingly proud of myself for having figured them out.)
I know that I shall continue to love your books for years to come. Someday I shall have read them all, and then, I suppose start back at the beginning again, because by that time I'd have sure to have forgotten parts of the ones that I had read first.

With love, Emily

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Dear Elizabeth Gaskell,

It is the very farthest thing from my intent, dear Mrs. Gaskell, to rebuke you for anything that you could not help. Indeed, I wish not to rebuke you, for I am most assured that if you could have helped it, you would have done your very best to do so. Thus, it is with much regret I state the cause of my great sorrow, knowing it to be something you could not alter or change.
I know you did not mean to die before you had finished the last words of Wives and Daughters. I know it to be something that was far from intentional, and it was not with the intent of vexing me that you did so. In fact, I fully realize that it is most self absorbed of me to be carrying on about my sorrow when I really ought to be speaking of the sorrow of your family, or of you yourself. I'm sure it wasn't entirely pleasant for you.
You see, though, my sorrow is the sorrow of all of your readers. We laughed, we cried, we knew just how you were intending to end it, but we were never to have that satisfaction of reading that ending in your own words. We were never to have the satisfaction of closing our copies with a happy sigh, knowing that all was right with our world.
We were left waiting with Molly, waiting for it to turn right, waiting for news of Roger- waiting. I think very few of us had any doubt how our story would turn out, we knew from the very beginning that Roger and Molly were meant to be together- but our story was left in silence.
I rather wonder how many readers, after their first heartbreak of unfinished story, were driven to resort to desperate measures; writing a sadly insufficient ending but satisfactory in as much that it was an ending. My own was scribbled on a few pages of notebook paper, in a factual and rather bare style, exactly what was needed for an end. A properly sentimental treasuring on Roger's part of a rose, a happy ending for those characters who needed one, and a brief mentioning of those characters who needed an ending, but who we did not wish the fullness of happiness to. After that I felt that I could move on, with only a few looks of regret at that unfinished story.
North and South has one of my favorite endings of all time, and I can only imagine Wives and Daughters' unwritten ending with regret.
I really do need to be rereading both North and South and Wives and Daughters sometime soon. It's been far too long since I've read either. Though of course, I always end up crying over both. Choosing between them I would have to say that Wives and Daughters is my favorite. I love North and South, with an especial fondness in my heart for some certain scenes, but Wives and Daughters can't help but be my favorite. Perhaps because I have more love for Molly than Margaret.
I've been meaning to find more of your books, besides those two, that will have to come next of my rather lengthy reading list. You were the author who brightened my life after I was in that "there are no more Jane Austen novels left to read" state of despair.

Much Love,
Emily

Monday, October 22, 2012

Of Knitted Dolls and Carrot Cake

I'm thinking...

At the moment I'm hiding from the morning. You might think this an impossible task, and indeed I have suspicions that while I might be fooling myself, I'm certainly not fooling anyone else, yet, still, I can't really persuade myself that it is a bad plan. I have hidden myself away from the alarm clock's persistent noise, away from the cold cold air and the horrid sunshine (not that I mean to say I dislike sunshine- I just find it entirely too cheerful in such trying times) and I'm feeling rather successful in my attempt at convincing myself that it is not morning. However, I cannot be wholly successful in this attempt, as proven by the mere fact that I am writing this rather than sleeping. As far as plans go I believe this one is as good a one as any to awaken me sufficiently to acknowledge that I must brave the cold air and get out of bed, but for the moment I shall continue to write on and hide myself away from the world under a thick quilt.
I can't quite believe it is Monday morning. How quickly days go, don't they? Really though, yesterday and the day before were just lovely days. We set out adventuring to see what we could see, and found ourselves in a set of lovely rooms looking out and across the bay to Canada. (a quick moment of recognition for the kisses blown across the wind to Canada. Really, we love Canada.) We explored the hotel, avoiding coming across the wedding group in their finery whilst attired in swimming wear. We skipped across the docks outside the hotel and danced under the billowing silken tent. We sprawled out on the couch and floor to watch the new Spider Man movie (which I enjoyed immensely. I've decided that it's now my third favorite superhero movie. I like the Avengers the very most, and then I think I like Iron Man, but after that I would say I liked The Amazing Spider Man.) In the morning we ate eggs and pancakes at a little diner (most notable for the bright yellow seat cushions and vintage signs hung willy nilly about the wall) and suddenly we were on our way home with the weekend over and done. (of course, it didn't happen so quickly as that and we had numberless wails of hunger and boredom to combat, and whist saying the rosary Ella struck up such a wail it was like praying in a hurricane.
Here we are though, safe and sound and ready to start Monday morning! Out of bed one goes and down the stairs to make some coffee.

From the kitchen...

I am fully confident that I could survive a diet of bread, butter and potatoes (just thinking ahead in case the world food supply is demolished and I need a plan. If necessary I could do away with the bread- all right the butter too since that's rather a luxury but GET THE POTATOES. If the potatoes die, I do to. Why am I not Irish?) That is, you see, what I meant to say was "I had bread and butter for breakfast this morning."

Did I mention I'm going to be making carrot cake today? I'm rather excited if you couldn't tell. I've been thinking about carrot cake for days now.

I'm creating...

My knit doll (See This Post)

She's actually almost finished. I have yet to embroider the eyes and mouth, finish knitting half an arm and sew both arms to her torso, but all in all she's almost finished.

The blue/green yarn I'm going to knit into a dress for her. Isn't it lovely? It's also very soft.





 
I've also been working out a synopsis for my NaNoWriMo story (TEN DAYS BEFORE IT STARTS) Perhaps I'll get it worked out and post it in say three days, a week before the actual challenge begins. Yes, that seems like a rather good idea.
 
I'm listening to...
 
A boy whistling, a chair moving across the floor (controlled I presume by the boy who is whistling) and some discussion going on about maps.
 
One of my favorite things...
 
Baking. (Did I mention I was making carrot cake today? Carrot cake with cream cheese frosting.) I'm also feeling in the mood to make bread, but I'm not sure if that will happen today.
 
Around the house...
 
I think I need to find some warm socks and a sweater, it's rather cold this morning.
 
Picture thoughts I'm sharing...
 
 
 
 
 
I liked this quote so I wanted to add it to this post
 

 
 
 
 
 


Tuesday, October 16, 2012

The Lady of Shalott

 
By Alfred Lord Tennyson

Part I

On either side the river lie
Long fields of barley and of rye,
That clothe the wold and meet the sky;
And through the field the road runs by
To many-towered Camelot;
And up and down the people go,
Gazing where the lilies blow
Round an island there below,
The island of Shalott.
Willows whiten, aspens quiver,
Little breezes dusk and shiver
Through the wave that runs for ever
By the island in the river
Flowing down to Camelot.
Four gray walls, and four gray towers,
Overlook a space of flowers,
And the silent isle imbowers
The Lady of Shalott.

By the margin, willow veiled
Slide the heavy barges trailed
By slow horses; and unhailed
The shallop flitteth silken-sailed
Skimming down to Camelot:
But who hath seen her wave her hand?
Or at the casement seen her stand?            
Or is she known in all the land,
The Lady of Shalott?
 
Only reapers, reaping early
In among the bearded barley,
Hear a song that echoes cheerly
From the river winding clearly,
Down to towered Camelot:
And by the moon the reaper weary,
Piling sheaves in uplands airy,
Listening, whispers "'Tis the fairy
Lady of Shalott."
 
 

Part II

There she weaves by night and day
A magic web with colours gay.
She has heard a whisper say,
A curse is on her if she stay
To look down to Camelot.
She knows not what the curse may be,
And so she weaveth steadily,
And little other care hath she,
The Lady of Shalott.
And moving through a mirror clear
That hangs before her all the year,
Shadows of the world appear.
There she sees the highway near
Winding down to Camelot: 
There the river eddy whirls,
And there the curly village-churls,
And the red cloaks of market girls,
Pass onward from Shalott.
Sometimes a troop of damsels glad,
An abbot on an ambling pad,
Sometimes a curly shepherd-lad,
Or long-haired page in crimson clad,
Goes by to towered Camelot;
And sometimes through the mirror blue
The knights come riding two and two:
She hath no loyal knight and true,
The Lady of Shalott.
 
But in her web she still delights
To weave the mirror's magic sights,
For often through the silent nights
A funeral, with plumes and lights
And music, went to Camelot:
Or when the moon was overhead,
Came two young lovers lately wed;
"I am half sick of shadows," said
The Lady of Shalott.
 
 

Part III

A bow-shot from her bower-eaves,
He rode between the barley-sheaves,
The sun came dazzling through the leaves, 
And flamed upon the brazen greaves
Of bold Sir Lancelot.
A red-cross knight for ever kneeled
To a lady in his shield,
That sparkled on the yellow field,
Beside remote Shalott.
The gemmy bridle glittered free,
Like to some branch of stars we see
Hung in the golden Galaxy.
The bridle bells rang merrily
As he rode down to Camelot:
And from his blazoned baldric slung
A mighty silver bugle hung,
And as he rode his armour rung,
Beside remote Shalott.
All in the blue unclouded weather
Thick-jewelled shone the saddle-leather,
The helmet and the helmet-feather
Burned like one burning flame together,
As he rode down to Camelot.
As often through the purple night,
Below the starry clusters bright,
Some bearded meteor, trailing light,
Moves over still Shalott.
 
His broad clear brow in sunlight glow'd;  
On burnished hooves his war-horse trode;
From underneath his helmet flowed
His coal-black curls as on he rode,
As he rode down to Camelot.
From the bank and from the river
He flashed into the crystal mirror,
"Tirra lira," by the river
Sang Sir Lancelot.
She left the web, she left the loom,
She made three paces through the room,
She saw the water-lily bloom,
She saw the helmet and the plume,
She looked down to Camelot.
Out flew the web and floated wide;
The mirror cracked from side to side;
"The curse is come upon me," cried
The Lady of Shalott.



Part IV

In the stormy east-wind straining,
The pale yellow woods were waning,
The broad stream in his banks complaining,
Heavily the low sky raining
Over towered Camelot;
Down she came and found a boat
Beneath a willow left afloat,
And round about the prow she wrote
            The Lady of Shalott.
 
And down the river's dim expanse
Like some bold seer in a trance,
Seeing all his own mischance —
With a glassy countenance
Did she look to Camelot.
And at the closing of the day
She loosed the chain, and down she lay;
The broad stream bore her far away,
The Lady of Shalott.
 
Lying, robed in snowy white
That loosely flew to left and right —
The leaves upon her falling light —
Through the noises of the night
She floated down to Camelot:
And as the boat-head wound along
The willowy hills and fields among,
They heard her singing her last song,
The Lady of Shalott.
 
Heard a carol, mournful, holy,
Chanted loudly, chanted lowly,
Till her blood was frozen slowly,
And her eyes were darkened wholly,
Turned to towered Camelot.
For ere she reached upon the tide 
The first house by the water-side,
Singing in her song she died,
The Lady of Shalott.
 
Under tower and balcony,
By garden-wall and gallery,
A gleaming shape she floated by,
Dead-pale between the houses high,
Silent into Camelot.
Out upon the wharfs they came,
Knight and burgher, lord and dame,
And round the prow they read her name,
The Lady of Shalott.

Who is this? and what is here?
And in the lighted palace near
Died the sound of royal cheer;
And they crossed themselves for fear,
All the knights at Camelot:
But Lancelot mused a little space;
He said, "She has a lovely face;
God in his mercy lend her grace,
The Lady of Shalott."
 
 

Monday, October 15, 2012

Crafty, Crafty Emily

Outside my window...

A window really is such an interesting thing, you know. It is like a description in a story; revealing the outside world, the scene, and yet limiting sight to a certain dimension. Here we have a window, a rectangle of limited size, and yet it frames a sight that reveals so much to us. We see the corner of a rooftop in one corner, a chimney emitting great billows of smoke that drift out of our sight and down the other side of the house. On the other side of that same window we see a row of trees, their colors bright and vibrant- reminding us that fall has come. Looking to the upper part of the window we have the sky, pale and almost white, a solid mass of cloud, making the entire scene to appear unfinished, as if an artist had left the upper half of their page blank.
If I were writing a description for a story I would be limiting myself to such important details as the window limits. I would be creating a sense of the place, the outside, without going on for pages and pages at a time. A window, a description, framing so much more than we can see, yet even from our limited sight we know it is there.

I'm thinking...

Working at the library I have a tendency to retreat into my thoughts, to create an imaginary world for myself like I always did when I was younger. I remember that even the shortest walk of those days would turn into the weary travels of a shepherd maiden with but a crust of bread to sustain her. Now, those thoughts have turned from a imaginary game, to the creating of a story yet to be written, but when you compare them they are very like. Of course I am much more concerned with the idea of plot and connection of a series of ideas to tie the whole thing together, but is there so very much difference to the creating of story then and now? Then it was a game I played; now it is the catching of ideas and characters to weave into a written story.
Whenever I don't have anything much to occupy my thoughts with, I have at least a half dozen stories that must be thought out and their endings decided.
Right now the story that occupies my mind the most is my Nanowrimo story. Up to this point the main idea has changed so much you would never connect it and my original idea. All I really know right now is that the story is to be focus on a sense of division. A division of self, a character with conflicting personality traits, and then a division in choices, as far as the character's future is concerned. I'm pretty sure that my main character will be named Elise (though this changes from day to day. Yesterday her name was Elaine, but really, I think Elise fits her better) I also have a couple other ideas for things I want to tie into the story, but I don't think I shall write them down here. I need to sort them out in my thoughts some more, and I don't want to write the whole plot out.

I'm listening to...

Bei Mir Bist Du Schon (Means That You're Grand) by the Andrew Sisters. (Yes, my obsession with their music has yet to weaken. They're still my favorite.) That reminds me though of this CD I brought home from the library yesterday, they (supposedly) make an appearance on it. It's actually a radio program with Abbott and Costello from when they (the Andrews Sisters) were very popular. I'm excited to try it out and see what it's like.

I'm creating...

Oh dear. Did I mention that I'm in an extreme crafting mood? Especially knitting. I've been trying out all sorts of different knitting techniques and perfecting them. Originally I was just making little swatches of knitted patterns, but then I decided that I would really love to make little knitted jumpers and things, but before I could do that I would need to make a little knitted doll to wear those jumpers and miniature hats and flowers and things. So I googled for knitted doll patterns and I found the dearest doll ideas. (weefolkart.com)

Look aren't they the dearest things? Can't you just picture with a wee little knitted jumper with a sweet little ruffle at the hem?

And look with those sweet little embroidered eyes and mouth? *squee* (but truthfully I would prefer hair of one colour. Maybe I'm unimaginative. Oh but if it were to be put into braids! Wouldn't that be lovely?)

(*edit* I previously had pictures from their post, but on second thought as I'm not very sure about copyright so I'll just let you all go to the site itself and look at the lovely pictures there. Do go and see. They're adorable. I'll post a picture when it's my own creation to share)

...and now I desperately (yes, my dear, I do know the italics make me sound dramatic, but aren't they just necessary? Okay, I'm going to stop now- but they're just so much fun. Putting undue stress on a certain word in your sentence. Quite.) need to go to a yarn shop and buy a nice large darning needle and and some soft cream yarn.

I can make all my jumpers and things from my "extra" yarn in my knitting bag, but honestly, isn't the cream simply necessary. I see you agree with me. How sensible of you.

I'm reading... Well, I was going to say something about the books I'm actually reading, but then the words "I'm reading" reminded me that I really need to finish this up so I can read the history chapters I'm supposed to read after writing this. So- I'm reading history chapters?

Some picture thoughts I'm sharing...

A picture of Ella and I that Mom took the other day. I rather like it.

 
 
And then I took a picture of the leaves on the ground. I like it because it just focuses up in that one area, which I think is neat.
 
 
A few plans for the rest of the week...
 
Not getting distracted? (*cough* riiiiiiight. Somehow after my knitting story that doesn't sound so convincing, does it? Did I mention I woke up in the middle of the night with a knitting needle in my hair? Yes.) I'm very excited for next weekend because I don't work and we're planning on doing something fun. Perhaps I shall write a post on it. (as well as writing up all those letters I'm behind on. YES. THAT IS THE PLAN.)
 



Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Dear C.S. Lewis,


Sometimes a memory that sticks with you is not a major event in your life, and perhaps it isn't even a very important memory. Still, it is a memory that lasts you forever. I have such a memory in connection to you, Mr. Lewis. Actually, I would like to correct that and say I have several such memories in connection to you, dearest Mr. C. S. Lewis. For it is a very sad childhood that doesn't contain many such memories of venturing through the wardrobe into the land of Narnia. (on that topic, do you know what an impression that made on me, Mr. Lewis? As long as I can remember I have been opening all wardrobes I come across with a quickened heart, only to stare dismally at rows of coats or to bang upon the wooden backing.)

My first memory of one of your books however, was The Magician's Nephew. It was a (relatively) hot summer day, and I had created for myself a nest of pillows on the front porch. I was about ten (for all the best memories happen when one is ten. Ten is such a delightful age. My favorite birthday was the year I turned ten, and I have bunches of favorite memories from the year I was ten. Ten is a year of exploration, of imaginings and days that seemed to last years in and of themselves.) Do you ever have those memories where you close your eyes and it is as if you can feel it all again? When I close my eyes and think of The Magician's Nephew, it is as if I can feel the warm sun shining down, hear a crow call (I'm not quite sure why a crow call always reminds me of this particular memory, but it has a very prominent place in it for some reason) and I'm sitting on a bench with my back propped up on at least two pillows. The book is a huge one. It was a collection of the entire series of Narnia books, and I was reading the first.

I suppose, really, what I'm trying to say in a round about way is what a prominent place Narnia had in my childhood. So prominent that a memory of reading one of your books is one of my clearest, it is as if you can step back in time to the day and place I was reading that book. I'm not even quite certain that was the first time I had read it, but it is my first strong memory of it.

As with any really well written book though, the Narnia books only grew to be better with each read. Suddenly they weren't just stories about a magical land with snow and a lamppost as they were when I was first reading them, but something beautiful, filled with symbolism and beauty.

My favorite of them is The Voyage of the Dawn Treader. I used to be rather scared of parts, but after the fright left, love came in it's place. The ending is so beautiful, with that scene where the albatross leads them out of the hopeless dark, and then when the children step to shore on the island and it is a lamb who they first see. A lamb that changes into Aslan. That just gives me pleasurable shivers.

I just want to say thank you, Mr. Lewis. Thank you for opening the wardrobe door and leading us into Narnia. Such a safe good place for us, filled with the good true and beautiful. A place that became only more lovely as the years went by.

(my only quarrel with you is how you finished off Susan's story. I'm sorry to say my childhood self has never quite forgiven you for that.)

Your stories will always have a place on my bookshelf.

Love,
Emily



Friday, October 5, 2012

Dear Laura Ingalls Wilder,


Oh Laura. As long as there's been books in our home and stories for bedtime... there's been you. Countless are the times I've heard your stories; they drift through the room as they are being read aloud or played in CD form, they sit waiting on various bookshelves and nightstands, even those too little to read flip through picture books telling your same stories in simple sentences. You are more than just a story on our bookshelf, for your stories were real and so the little girl on the pages sprung to life and she too became more than a character on a page. We knew that while we could peep in on part of her life, listening to the words that you wrote for us, there were times where she slipped away into history and we could not follow. After a while our little Laura character would come prancing back, after helping Ma with some chores or playing with Mary, perhaps you would tell us about those things, or perhaps you would let a few days of things that seemed uneventful slip away and tell us instead of a story that Pa told you on some cold winter's night.

Both character and writer were you, and perhaps that is part of your magic. There is a time when almost every child reading a much loved book has whispered out "Oh I wish it were real." and has been disappointed, but not with you, Laura. For you take that child by the hand and lead them back into your real life, teaching them what it was to churn butter and live in a dugout.

If you had not been the writer you were your stories might have fallen flat. A person may have beautiful and wondrous stories to tell, but unless they have the words to tell them with their stories will remain, forever trapped in the past. Oh how glad we are that we have you, you who knew just how to tell those stories to us. You knew what memories to tell to us, you knew which were the ones to retell and which were the ones to keep locked away as your own. Your stories lived before our eyes. With each word our imaginations gained a better image of Pa playing his fiddle, Ma and her busy hands, Mary with her goodness, baby Carrie who grew out of being a baby before our eyes, Grace who wasn't even alive till we reached later books, but most of all you. Even when you were telling about being naughty, it was naughtiness that we all knew we would have committed if we were you- for you gave us a little girl who was both lovable and real. Real because she was you.

It seemed as if we could practically smell the pies and cakes that Almanzo's mother always made, that we could hear the rustling of the skirts at the dance at Grandpa's house, and it seemed to me that if I just closed my eyes I might open them again to see you and Mary perched on pumpkins playing with your rag dolls.

You grew up from being our playmate, to a school teacher, to a mother and wife. It seemed like we grew up with you. As we got older we went from book to book, traveling with you away from the little house in the big woods, across the prairie, into town; everywhere you went we went with you. Yours will be stories that last with us for always. Stories that we will want to read again and again. You see, not only were you a character we admired, a heroine of a lovely story, but you were a real women who's story was not a fairytale. You inspired us, but it was not heroics that were unattainable. You showed us your failings, most of the time those were what you were trying to show us, but you were a dear, good, courageous woman who we loved.

You and Almanzo, Ma and Pa, Mary, Carrie, and Grace will always be a part of our home. You take us back to a time in history that is now past, a time of traveling over the country in a covered wagon, knowing that you may never see the family you left behind again. I think this should make us (us as in your readers) realize how fortunate we are, blessed in that no matter how many miles we are separated by, we are only a relatively short plane ride away, when put into perspective. We are blessed with the soft beds which are ours to lay down in at night, the roof over our heads, the knowledge that we are safe and warm.

I think we should also question why when we are so blessed we still worry and complain and fret such an awful lot. If you had complained the way we do over every little thing you would have been unbearable to live with, perhaps, that is what we are more than a little of the time. Perhaps we need to have more faith; faith like the faith that kept such a family as yours going though you knew not what was going to happen to you from day to day. You knew that you had each other, that you were safe wherever you were, and that God was watching out for you.

We are blessed with our families, with our home, enough food, and the faith that whatever happens God is watching out and taking care of us. Why should we worry more than you?

With much love and gratitude to you, Laura,

Emily